Why is this always complicated?

Why is pregnancy so freaking complicated?

All those contractions I've been having for the past 3 weeks? They've disappeared. Gone. Kaput. I still get an occasional one, but NOTHING like what I'd been having. Smallfry is still moving around and causing me discomfort, so I'm *assuming* he's still ok...although we all know what assuming can get you. I can't decide if I should worry or not. I start to worry, then he moves, and I'm all "well, I guess I shouldn't worry if he's still getting jiggy in there" but then I think - what if he stopped growing? what if there's not enough fluid and he can't get comfy? What if...5 million other things? He's not AS active as he has been, but that's just because he's running out of room...right? It doesn't mean anything else?

So here I am, complaining about the contractions and then worrying when they stop. I haven't had any NSTs since my doc left last week. We figured I'd been doing really well at them, nothing to worry about at all, and with him gone they would be sent to the hated doc in the office so there really wasn't any point. Now I'm beginning to wish I could just go in for one...just to check things out. I keep reassuring myself that he'll be back in town on Thursday and my appt is on Friday and we can talk then and it will all be ok. I mean, I WAS very adamant that I didn't want to have this child without him, right? Right.

And on THAT score, Aaron and I have decided that when I go in on Friday I am going to talk to him about the possibility of inducing me. Just...to have an idea, a plan in place. Sunday marks my full 40 and this kid is showing zero signs of wanting to come out. I know they need to "cook", but I don't want him to get overly big. I haven't had an u/s since 20 weeks (which? sucks) so we have no guesses as to weight or length or anything. I don't even know where to begin on how to guess!