And here we go again....

woke up this morning with my favorite visitor. That's right...AF arrived for cycle 33! And this time she snuck up on me because I wasn't paying attention to my chart. I guess now I know why I was so very grouchy yesterday...bah!

This is getting so old. I ought to just quit counting...it's not like it matters anyhow. I'm probably never going back to the RE, I haven't temped in 6 months (ever since we got the results of DH's SA test), I take opk's every few months just to make sure I know what's going on with me. But it really just doesn't matter anymore...it's not going to happen and I should just get used to it.

Somehow, though, I can't give up. Maybe it's because I've been doing this for 26 months. Maybe it's just become such habit that I can't...the behavior is ingrained. I'll probably be counting my cycles until I'm 50! Why can't I just let it go? Why do I put myself through this every month, knowing it's not doing to do any good?

Yet another dream...

I had another one of those vivid baby dreams Friday night. This time it went all the way through labor. GAH! I woke up exhausted.

I've decided to start taking opk's again this month, just so I can see what's going on with my cycle. I think I'm ovulating too early...but I don't know what to do to fix it. Time to do more research! Just when I thought I knew everything there was to know...along comes something new to keep me on my toes!

I hope everyone has a very Happy Easter!

On to C32....

I really ought to quit counting. This is just getting utterly ridiculous! I knew it would take a while - but 32 cycles and 26 months is a little more than I ever thought in my wildest melodramatic moments.

AF (Aunt Flo) showed up Friday. To add insult to injury, she was 2 days earlier than I expected. I think I'm going to do opk's this month - I haven't done them in about 6 months or so, but perhaps I should just so I can double check on me. Make sure I'm still ovulating when I think I am. I have been thinking about temping again the past few months - but that means finding a time to get up every single day, and I've rather enjoyed being able to sleep!

Going to try bding EOD this month. Since I have the lowest sex drive of anyone I've ever heard of I'm not sure how I'm going to manage this...but I gotta try. We'll see if that in combination with EOD works. Keep your fingers crossed!

The experiment so far

Well...it looks like if we ever manage to get pregnant we're having a boy. We were hoping for a girl first as we both really want one and have the feeling we're only going to have one child...unless we get lucky a second time. On the upside, it's good for a girl to have an older brother. DH is one, I have one (but we won't count him) and a few of my other friends are older brothers. They DO come in handy from time to time. :)

From Jenny Renny

It took several tries, but I finally got a response from her.

Question: I am 28 years old and have been married 2 1/2 years. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a while now with no luck. I am seriously getting discouraged. I was wondering if you could tell me when we might get pregnant - and if we are going to get pregnant, what gender we will have?
Answer:I do see a boy born in the Spring but I also see some meetings with a doctor before this happens. Im not getting the feeling that it is invasive treatment to get pregnant but maybe it's time to see a Naturapathic doctor in your area.

If you decide to try her out, just be patient. It took about a week before I got a response to my second request - and I never did get a response from the first time. I think it just got lost. :)

Jenny's Site

Vivid Dreams....

Wish I knew what they meant.

I had a really vivid baby dream last night. I dreamt that we had triplets. the first child was born at 10:11 pm and her name was Helen Elizabeth. The second was born at 10:31 and her name was Catherine Brianna. And a day later I had a boy, and his name was Aiden Donovan.

Now...I've had dreams of twins and quads. But never ever have I dreamt of the times and names before! And it was just so vivid...I was smiling when I woke up! GAH! :)